Time to be honest...I'm sick of putting on a pretty face for everyone and trying to appear to be perfection to those around me. There has been very little joy in my life over the past few years, but it is my fault. I have let my relationship with the Lord fall apart and I only seem to turn to Him when I'm very desperate for help. I try to do everything on my own and control things, but I've hit rock bottom. Perhaps I'm jadded from my life not being what I had always dreamed of and I really, really miss my home and family in Iowa. I'm longing for purpose and contentment in where God has me, but it's hard.
I want so badly to be the Godly wife that Chris deserves, the compassionate and loving friend to those around me, the dedicated and passionate employee at my job, and the Christian woman who is so on fire for God that serving Him and loving others is the only priority in my life. I have so much to learn and I know that God is right here, waiting for me to lean on Him. I know that I cannot be that person on my own strength and am trusting that God will change my heart and direct my steps.
Time to be open about my weaknesses, time to share my struggles, time to give my worries to Christ, time to be real with my friends, time to be honest.
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you are more than welcome to call me anytime you need someone to talk to...i miss ya :(
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