Things have been going well here. It has been such a blessing to find a guy who is not only passionate about his relationship with the Lord, but also extremely patient and thoughtful with me. Sometimes I feel like struggle with the same trust issues that have been created from past pain, but for the most part it is improving over time as I realize that I can take someone for their word and know that he would not intentionally hurt me...something that was quite the opposite in the past when it seemed like the goal was to push my buttons and create distance. Right now I'm needing to cling to Christ and remember that even though not one person can be perfect and some have walked away leaving huge wounds exposed in their wake, God will love me unconditionally and NEVER give up when I become frustrating or indifferent. It hurts to feel rejected, but even more so to know that the reasons to call it quits were just excuses for the moment...he's moved on and starting over. I'm getting there, too, thanks to God's loving grace and overflowing mercy in my life. My heart may ache at times, but I try to take advantage of the reminder of what's most important in this world, and it's my relationship with Christ and sharing the hope and joy that I have in Him with others...He is my rock, fortress, and deliverer.
I will love You, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Ps 18.1-2)