Vulnerability...

Who actually likes vulnerability? Who likes to be dependent upon anyone or anything outside of themselves? I think I struggle with this a lot. I like to think that I'm in control, at least to some extent, and feel like I can walk away from anyone or anything if I want to. The problem, however, lies in the fact that I am very much swayed by people, circumstances, and emotions. This can be harmful when I allow these things to influence my decisions rather than basing my choices on Truth. But in other ways, vulnerability & dependence are good things. Going into missions, I am very dependent upon others' money, time, encouragement and prayers. Without my team, this ministry wouldn't be possible, and I could not pursue God's will for me. Surrendering my life to Him, I have become very dependent upon God for purpose, joy, peace, and significance. It all becomes a balancing act, making sure I am relying upon God for love and worth rather than on what others say or think. If my main goal is to stay fixated upon Him, growing in my walk and learning to be more like Christ each day, then I cannot fail. I know that God has been preparing me for something amazing and His fingerprints are everywhere! Because of this, I do not mind being vulnerable and dependent. This goal can only be reached through His strength and provision, which means I do not have to worry about details, money, or timing in my life. Phew! Now that's a relief! God is good and His is faithful...He is MY God.