God is faithful

Wow, God is so faithful. He has given me so many suportive friends and family during this tough time and these wonderful people have done so much for me; praying, listening, talking, advising, and just loving me. I keep coming to realize that even when I feel so alone, that God is there and working through others to be an encouragement to me. Even though it's hard right now to see what the future holds, I know that He will work everything out to His glory.

Proverbs 16:9 The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.

Hebrews 3:12-14 Take care, brethren, that there not be in any one of you an evil, unbelieving heart that falls away from the living God. But encourage one another day after day, as long as it is still called "Today," so that none of you will be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. For we have become partakers of Christ, if we hold fast the beginning of our assurance firm until the end

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Some good advice from a close friend was to keep personal things personal and avoid more problems later...wise advice.

Wild Weekend...

I had a fun weekend taking a roadtrip with four other friends to Northwest Arkansas for a wonderful wedding. Sarah Plymale and Aaron Sullivan are now "one flesh" and enjoying sunny San Diego. Talk about a rush of memories...getting married was full of new experieces and emotions. It was a slippery trip with the ice and snow, but it was so good to see so many people that I hadn't seen for a few years. I guess it was a little wierd because I never really developed deep relationships with many of the group since I hung out with a different guys' floor at LU. The best part was seeing lots of G2 girls, especially Zippy. *sigh...We had an awesome time chilling in the hotel room, digesting way too much food that we had eaten earlier, and reminiscing about college. It was fun, but then we had a long drive home to Texas and due to bad weather and a late start, I finally made it home to crawl in at 4:00 AM Sunday morning. Thank the Lord for an 11:15 service. After that and a quick 9.5 mile run around White Rock Lake, I was able to kick back and relax til work today. Three day weekends rock...

Honesty is the BEST policy...

Time to be honest...I'm sick of putting on a pretty face for everyone and trying to appear to be perfection to those around me. There has been very little joy in my life over the past few years, but it is my fault. I have let my relationship with the Lord fall apart and I only seem to turn to Him when I'm very desperate for help. I try to do everything on my own and control things, but I've hit rock bottom. Perhaps I'm jadded from my life not being what I had always dreamed of and I really, really miss my home and family in Iowa. I'm longing for purpose and contentment in where God has me, but it's hard.
I want so badly to be the Godly wife that Chris deserves, the compassionate and loving friend to those around me, the dedicated and passionate employee at my job, and the Christian woman who is so on fire for God that serving Him and loving others is the only priority in my life. I have so much to learn and I know that God is right here, waiting for me to lean on Him. I know that I cannot be that person on my own strength and am trusting that God will change my heart and direct my steps.
Time to be open about my weaknesses, time to share my struggles, time to give my worries to Christ, time to be real with my friends, time to be honest.